Just sorting through stuff; my internet identity is very very scarce, on every medium, not just here.

Sorry if I worried anybody. Just a lot of drama hitting all at once. College, for me, is very... stressful, more so than usual. My brother went back to jail for his heroin addiction and my Grams won't press charges for his stealing her antique coin collection, even though she SHOULD because this is the THIRD. TIME. He has stolen from us and gone to jail for his theft/heroin related issues. Prison can only do him GOOD at this point. She's still sending him money and still enabling his addiction. He's trying to tell his own mother that it's HER FAULT that he's the way he is, when my mom has to worry about the tumor in her neck and not being able to afford to get it taken care of. Now she has a son telling her it's her fault he is the way he is, and because he's not taking responsibility for his actions, everyone is trying to point fingers. My parents are arguing with each other about it, and won't listen to me when I say it isn't anybody's fault except for my brother's. He's the degenerate, he's the one who abused our love, he's the one that needs to suffer with the weight of what he's done until he can nut up and take it like a fucking man. He's almost thirty years old and all I see is the scared, petulant child he still is.

There's a girl in our college corner that obviously needs some professional help, but cries, screams in your face and pitches a fit if you tell her so. She's trying to depend on everyone else to take care of her when she is eighteen years old and should be capable of taking care of herself. I don't need this high school drama bullshit added to my heaping college plate (which is, might I add, already heaped with bullshit). Not to mention another girl who seems to be trying to break up a marriage.

And lately, I've been dragged into the middle of a dispute between friends and trying my hardest to keep their friendship together, because really, it's only some mis-communication that's causing the rift and it can be fixed. I've seen so many relationships and friendships crumble and fall apart over stupid shit that maybe, just once, I'd like to see one go the distance.

Really, the biggest killer is my college issues, which I'm not gonna share for personal reasons. When I've shared them with those I trust the most, I haven't gotten the response I... thought I would get, or "needed". The responses I've gotten have triggered my depression, which, when I'm depressed, I actually get angry.

So I'll be quiet a little while longer until this rough patch clears up a little and I can be happy and not bring anybody down with me. Because, really, nobody enjoys hanging out with the person who can't see any optimism in anything, and that's me right now, so I'm not going to force the over-boilage of my problems on anyone anymore than I already have just by writing this.

Just thought that those that wanted to know deserved an explanation as to why I've been absent so long.