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Journal Entry: Fri Nov 13, 2009, 7:36 PM

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This is something I've been wanting to get off of my chest for a long time.

I want to say a huge THANK YOU to everyone who has ever made me cry in my life. To my childhood bullies who picked on my clothes and weight because I am and always will be an overweight person thanks to my wonderful genetic lottery. Thank you to the fake friends I had for years just because I was the easily manipulated smart kid laying the grounds to your academic stardom while mine suffered, all for the sake of a friendship that never mattered.

You have completely annihilated my ability to trust anyone other than myself, as well as put me on the brink of an eating disorder several times.

Thanks to the father figures in my life for not jerking me around and pretending you truly care (current father figure excepted). I never had to fool myself into thinking that my mother WASN'T all I had and that she was and still is the only one I can or could ever really turn to. Thanks to a certain father figure for making me afraid of anything that comes in a close proximity to my face. You've given me reflexes some athletes could only dream of ever having.

Thanks to my older half-brother for also helping to realize that not even FAMILY can be trusted. Love you.

Thanks to all of the aforementioned because you all are the best teachers life can give. Life isn't pretty, not everyone is nice enough to accept you for who you are. Thanks for ruining that idea early on to save me from thinking something like true acceptance happens for everybody. Thank you for breaking me down and teaching me my physical, emotional and mental limits. Knowing when I'm teetering on the edge has saved me sometimes.

Most of all, thanks for helping me to become a stronger person. Thanks for making me self-efficient, thanks for making it so that I can save myself. Thanks for helping me realize that the only person I can depend on is myself.

That is truly the greatest gift someone can give.

On the bright side, don't think I've become too 'emo', now. I do trust some people, and I do love my family, and I do have friends and I love them, too. They're more precious to me than they'll ever know (probably because I don't really tell them anything. Go figure). And, I truly am grateful to my tormentors. Some people become completely broken, but they broke me and I learned that hey, I am capable of putting myself back together. That doesn't mean I won't accept help, because I will when I feel I need it, but thanks to them I can be completely independent. I don't need anybody to make or keep me happy, I'm good at taking care of myself. But if people want to be with me and want to make/keep me happy of their own will, then of course they're welcome to hang around. :blowkiss:

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  • Mood: Hurt
  • Listening to: UFC Fighters fighting
  • Reading: My own story
  • Watching: Nothing.
  • Playing: Nuffin. ._.
  • Eating: [air]
  • Drinking: spit
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On here? Well, I try my best to be the best person I can be, sure, but perfect is never achievable. Sorry if you hate me, I won't change for you, but if you're ever willing to get over it, go ahead, I'll be nice.

In real life? Ahahaha, much more mean. I don't know why, but that's just how it is. I'm kind of an amateur writer and music is my life. I'm getting my GED and going to get my A.A.S in Hotel ans Resort Management at a two-year college. That's it, pretty much.

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  • Current Residence: New York
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: large or XL [I like baggy clothes]
  • Print preference: 5x5
  • Interests: music, anime, and art. Without those three things, surely I would stop breathing =]
  • Favourite movie: ... there's too many. Basically, vampire and horror movies. Hehe.
  • Favourite band or musician: UVERworld ♥
  • Favourite genre of music: Anything. 'Cept for some country and rap.
  • Favourite artist: CLAMP/Hayao Miyazaki
  • Favourite poet or writer: JD Allen on fictionpress... she's really good, along with a lot of other writers on there!
  • Favourite photographer: My friend, Schyler! mehe!
  • Favourite style of art: Traditional. And Sprites!
  • Operating System: Windows Vista *barf*
  • MP3 player of choice: Video iPod
  • Shell of choice: The shells that are the fairy islands from Zelda the Wind Waker
  • Wallpaper of choice: Nabari No Ou (awesome, awesome manga, by the by...)
  • Skin of choice: Cookie-ified. xD [Black Christmas!]
  • Favourite game: Pokemon... and DDR!
  • Favourite gaming platform: Nintendo and Playstation (gosh, I lurve DDR!)
  • Favourite cartoon character: All teh evil ones. I share my mother's bad boy complex.
  • Personal Quote: "You are the bane of my dismal existence, and for that, well... I think I love you. :D "
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencils and occasionally, a pen (usually blue ink)

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:iconlolliegirl300:
~LollieGirl300 Oct 31, 2009, 4:39:03 AM
PLEASE READ THIS WHOLE POST. IT?S SO DANG TRUE*
This post really means something to me so you should feel it too!

1. At least 2 people in this world love you so much they would die for you.

2. At least 15 people in this world love you in some way.

3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you.

4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don?t like you.

5. Every night, SOMEONE thinks about you before they go to sleep.

6. You mean the world to someone.

7. If not for you, someone may not be living.

8. You are special and unique.

9. Someone that you don?t even know exists loves you.

10. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it.

11. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take a look: you most likey turned your back on the world.

12. When you think you have no chance of getting what you want, you probably won?t get, but if you believe in yourself, probably, sooner or later, you will get it.

13. Always remember the compliments you received. Forget about the rude remarks.

14. Always tell someone how you feel about them; you will feel much better when they know.

15. If you have a great friend, take the time to let them know that they are great.

Add this as a comment to ten of your friends tonight and at midnight your true love will love you. Something good will happen to you at 2:25 tomorrow. Get ready for the biggest shock of your life. Whoever breaks this chain letter will be cursed with 10 realationship problems for the next ten years tag ur it!! this is so scary!!! Send this to 15 ppl in the next 143 min. and then press F6 and your crushes name will appear in big letters!! it is so scary because it works?. but if you break the chain... you will be crused w/ realationship problems. NO SEND BACKS If you have less than 15 friends its okay.
I TOLD YOU!

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'Avatar made by *Kezzi-Rose' I don't own you.
Mr. Grumpy, Ratigan Bulkhead We're free!
Oh, no your not!
Bulkhead: What?
I don't own you Bulkhead. Someone owns the COPYWRITE to you. But, I own your souls...
Ratigan Oh god...
Tehe!
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~solaria92 Oct 31, 2009, 7:51:26 AM
Haha, thanks. =]

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"Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me
And near death, last breath
And barely hanging on -
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?"

Visit TECPS, people! ~TECPS
:iconlolliegirl300:
~LollieGirl300 Oct 31, 2009, 8:04:45 AM
LOLz welcome! :) Without you I would have never stayed on dA! :hug:

--
'Avatar made by *Kezzi-Rose' I don't own you.
Mr. Grumpy, Ratigan Bulkhead We're free!
Oh, no your not!
Bulkhead: What?
I don't own you Bulkhead. Someone owns the COPYWRITE to you. But, I own your souls...
Ratigan Oh god...
Tehe!
:iconsolaria92:
~solaria92 Oct 31, 2009, 10:36:17 AM
Awww! :hug:

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"Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me
And near death, last breath
And barely hanging on -
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?"

Visit TECPS, people! ~TECPS
:iconsprolagirl:
~SprolaGirl Sep 19, 2009, 9:12:12 AM
Thank you very much for the watch.:meow:

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"I'm so sorry....."
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~solaria92 Sep 19, 2009, 9:24:13 AM
No problem! 8D You're good.

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"Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me
And near death, last breath
And barely hanging on -
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?"

Visit TECPS, people! ~TECPS
:iconsprolagirl:
~SprolaGirl Oct 13, 2009, 4:31:17 PM
Aww thank you <3

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"I'm so sorry....."
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~aimylou07 Jul 30, 2009, 5:10:01 AM
Done my half of the art trade =3 hope you like it

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MYREEGH!!!!! XD
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~solaria92 Jul 30, 2009, 3:59:52 PM
I dooo! Yours is coming soon!

--
"Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you,
cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me
And near death, last breath
And barely hanging on -
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?"

Visit TECPS, people! ~TECPS
:iconaimylou07:
~aimylou07 Jul 31, 2009, 1:19:03 AM
YAY

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MYREEGH!!!!! XD
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